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Sunday, March 09, 2008 Hard-earned Trusttrust is that special something u can spend months, years or even a lifetime earning it, but lost in a split-second.i know my boss and ex-team leader is aware of the potential i have. if not, they would not have pushed for my promotion in less than 9 months when the usual conversion rate is 1yr-1.5yrs thereabout. this is also despite the fact that, there were at least a handful that joined before me that did not even get converted even after 1.5yrs. naturally, that created some sore-eyes in the team. i did not wish for that to happen, but if it had to, i will just face it. the daddy and mommy of the team had a natural responsibility of making their children happy when they are not. so they decided to promote all of them to leverage status. but.. to show favorism? i hate the look and sarcasm T gave me whenever he is talking to me now. just cos i couldnt find time to play tennis with him anymore? why could he be understanding and even try to find out what pressure im suffering under, instead of just accusing and stereo-typing me as someone who boh-chup after i got my current status (ie. promoted)?? damnit. and the fact that i was sahbohed during my lowest period (Jan'08) did not really helped in my image building in the team, too. add a couple times i was late due to stupid traffic conditions which i had no control over, and tah-dah~~ a fucked up worker in the team. and that, caused the daddy and a new mommy to lose faith in their most potential, if not 2nd most potential kid in the house. i saw that coming when R photostated my note to a colleague asking for a small favour and included it in the handover documents. when i saw it the next day, i was like... WTF?! then, i came to realise that, no matter how warm, friendly, socialable and likeable you might be with your work mates, there are bound to be people who enjoy sour grapes more than sweet tangerins. and now, im gonna work double hard to win the trust back. not cos becos i really value this job (aint gonna stay here long anyway) but becos i have my pride and personal self-esteem to uphold. in times i need support, i had no one to hold onto. friends and buddies are people whom are just not there whenever u need them, but always come to you when they realise the usefulness in you. i know its not gonna be easy swimming in a sea of sharks, but with you nicely stuck in my mind, i know i will and shall see shore very soon. i just hope that we can stick it out thru these turbulent times together. i can see light in the near distant. really. i know im willing to give up high priorities in me and crazy sacrifices i never know i'd make, in the faint hope u will be willing to hold my hand and brave it out..together. will you? |
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