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Tuesday, March 20, 2007 终于领悟了don u like the feelin once something that once really bothered u so much, u cant slp, u cant eat, kept thinking about it so much so tt u lose concentration in whatever u do and got injured, finally had an explanation to? juz like a huge load off ya back.i do. only after struggling to hard to find the answer without any assistance. tried crying to get help.. assistance.. solutions.. wudever. then i realised the dead truth. that crying doesn't help, only make one seem very 没出息。n 我最讨厌没出息的男人。女人still nt so bad. cos they can rely on men to 养她们 =X it was hard. i mean, who can cry out loud, maciam si beh si bu anneh kuan(like lost father, mother like tt), and can manage to stop crying TOTALLY in the next second? 屁啊~ i personally took some time before i managed to stop crying. cos i wanted to learn. i saw the need to improve. so that i wont have to cry again. so that i wont make others cry too. i put in my best efforts. it was a decision i had to make. it was a situation i was coerced into. i din like it, but i never gave up. i made a decision, and i wont want to regret it. actually, initially one of the many reasons why i couldn't see myself letting go entirely, was cos i was scared. like letting go of ur hand when ur hanging by the edge of a cliff. let go confirm 包 dead. also scared of the time bomb planted in me, that would go off anytime, should she somehow managed to find someone new. not anymore. well.. at least not so soon la. told u i needed time. luckily she told me she needed a break too. but how long, i dunno. she dunno. no one knows. heh.. nvm la.. summer holidays, anyone? ;) driving @ 55kmph really can put one to slp. now i finally understand how those army tonner drivers went thru. u know, there are so many things in life, u really gotta experience it urself, go thru all those shit, before u really understand the true meaning in it. i went thru army, understood what it meant. thats level 1. i went thru life as an agent, realised that it really wasn't as easy it seemed to be. level 2. and finally, my 1st failed relationship, which i managed to understand 80% of the whole saga after so much struggling to find the answer alone. not bad. level 3. =) i was at level 2, and that was an all-time low of my life. what 师姐 said was right. the person who sees u thru ur lowest pt in ur career, has an extremely high potential of a promising future together. on the contrary, those who don manage to, mayb they are just unsuitable to be a lifetime partner. just like crossing a road. perhaps thats y u see so many ppl crossing the road, and none so far who is willing to stop right in the middle of it. (siao ah? stand in middle of road waiting to kena langgah?? hanzy: maaaad.) but that doesn't mean we cannot be friends with the ppl crossing the road! =) hahaha.. almos reaching home, when i was stopped by this road block off geylang rd. that malay policeman was funny.. actually i was abit guai lan with him lah.. malay: go where? mood is definitely lighter. mayb this is the feelin one gets, having made a new-found fren. i think i might just be able to slp well tonight. haha ok.. shan't set any alarms, just tonight. hee~ =P extreme hunger pangs kicked in.. sh!t0. should've grabbed some food from geylang juz now. too engrossed in thought i guess >.< friends forever(or at least until i die, then u decide whether to continue befriending a dead man)! |
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